the sun beats down on the carpet mold
glossy-eyed girl with a taste for gold
sober and sane, nowhere to be
takes a shot at the wall, where the mirror used to be

ready to implode, ready to burst
unsure if she'll crack or check in first
hands reaching for the bottle, but pulling away
for the ammunition's limited, but the drinks can stay

burned out, inertia in full bloom
light fixtures dangling, burning the broom
but there's nothing to clean, no reason to try
she chose long ago to just watch herself die

witness protection doesn't do her shit
no scene or identity ever seems to fit
the glass is looking pretty as she bombs another wall
no regards to the sleeping couples down the hall

crisis diverted, but in comes the war
the battle of sobriety from before
will she crack, contain her condition, well?
is she staying in middle ground, or flying to hell?

business is bad, she's out of stock
lack of interest, lack of cock
with only TV and mattresses to keep her okay
we knew she was going to crack any day

she grabs the glass, without hesitation
no time for a quick thought of realization
she's going to die today, and she doesn't care
that train's long gone, to god knows where

in minutes, she's broken, all hope is lost
with no moral compass, no lines can be crossed
grabs all the old drugs from the toilet tank
dedicates her heroin to the city bank

lost in a fog of smoke and vapor
mixing drinks with her ghosts in the rolling papers
too far gone to get her back
too far gone, too out of whack

heads to the balcony, looks below
once-grassy fields now coated with snow
knocks back another acid pill, ready to fly
but before she goes, she curls up and cries

where'd all the time go? wasted and ashamed
no one to look for, she deserves the blame
destroyer of good cause, upbringer of sex
lost three years fucking, hooked on X

lights another cigarette to try to bring herself back
overstocked on rope and loaded with crack
with nothing to lose, everything was lost
she took off her shoes and threw them into the frost

forever a burden on peace and love
ready to live forever above
looking down at the snow, she positioned to fly
before she landed for the last time, she closed her eyes