Yes, that's her name. Because this is by far my most personal song about her, I figure I'd mention her by name here. Besides, she hates my guts anyway. Would calling her out by name change that? Anyway, I still think this is one of the best songs I've ever written. It's very hard to listen to, but I think that means it worked.
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Of going upfront
Of getting it off my chest
Of letting my emotions tackle me
And allowing my thoughts to do the rest
Confused regarding what I like
And what I take much further
If I must say this to someone else, I never wished to stun her
(Because)
You are still an angel, sent from the blue
You radiate positivity, always knowing what and how to do
If they still worshipped the sun, you would be the one
I’d pray for
Of falling in and out
Of tricking myself insane
Of collapsing on a sunny day
And turning it into rain
For half a year, I held it close
It didn’t affect what mattered most
Until it felt like time
Maybe I should have waited (But)
You are still an angel, with halos, wings, and everything
You make my otherwise awful day, always knowing what to say
If my mind could keep control, you still might never know
What I knew
Shadows of regrets still hang over me
With no acknowledgement of what it may have been for you
Did I just alienate myself from a true good friend?
Did I prematurely summon an untimely end?
Tell me not to worry
It only feels worse
Equally distributed
It still hurts
But this changes nothing
I still feel the same
Except for the added guilt
And its brother, shame (But)
You are still an angel, from the clouds
No robes, no halos, no holy gowns
When we were still innocent, we couldn't see the now
But it would probably have been better of as is
But you're still an angel, daughter of the sky
This shouldn't be goodbye, but I think this could be it
If I had control, I'd be fine
But if fate's a thing, I think it's our time
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