in a symphony of bedroom noise
I apologize endlessly

I may as well let you know
five months have come and gone
and I still can't stop thinking about you

you must have done something right
to the wretched creature in my skull
your appearance in my head has given me a

gorgeous mind
beautiful mind
I don't mind
if I've been unkind
I can't leave
my ugly past behind
because I'll always hold it tight
in my gorgeous mind

I'm partially done doting
you're not an angel anymore
and I'm kinda glad I didn't try to make things like before

but the gate of signs has burned to the ground
I need to make a better sound
meta much? I'm just saying
that it's a painful statement I've spent far too long delaying

I'm a skeleton to your professor
exhibit A in a dusty closet
I can't be bothered to say a word
even if I know I'll be heard

bullshit, we know that's a lie
knowing you would rather lie
then look at me again
unforgiving thoughtful friend

of mine
you have graced me with
your image
and in turn

a gorgeous mind
beautiful mind
never mind
if I used to be unkind
I didn't try
to make you cry
I regret a lot
but not everything

sail over the cast iron planet
I was alone and loving it
but I spent quite a bit of time, waiting for the gods
it's not enough for me
on the outside, I was fine
on the inside, black tar mind
you have blessed me with

holding back, left behind
stalling in a gorgeous mind

of Polish descent
in tears she went
now is not the right time to ask her

April 12, I felt funny inside
the morning was confident, but a bit jagged
the afternoon, I left, my conscience died
I think we all did