sleeping quietly, sleeping still at the top of Amber Hill feel no ground, feel no sky I'm so happy I could almost fly but I won't grow wings and disappear because you know I need you here a balance for my bursts of rage unwilling to type another page

the pyramids, they block my eyesight the power grids don't get it right I thought I'd seen this light before lights spelled out in semaphore drag down symbol: genius flag don't ask Ivy, she's a slag ride the solar vortex, whore like the fucking dinosaur you are under a blank sky with tiny gray squares no use complaining when nobody cares can't find terror anywhere I wonder if she's even there when she's zoning out, I can't tell if she's in heaven, or she's in hell I tried to get close, but she almost bit will she ever give up this "friendship" BULLSHIIIIIT!

it's a normal day, of sundown and sunrise so it shouldn't be much of a surprise that all of your friends look like guys from behind if that's the road you're taken, I wish you well driving down the driveway of right-wing hell but Jackson wouldn't be there if you would tell this to him

I'm really that dumb to leave you on my mind for all this time with nothing better to do well, you left such an impact I couldn't forget I'd never felt delivered that strange effect I still say sorry, I won't give up it's not cliché if it's not wrong I won't quit sorry, don't know why not to subside

will I ever know someone quite like you someone who knew what exactly to do erratically quirky erotically sane something pulled me into you that made my day yet I still can't help but relive the moment that you denounced me and I hoped you'd reconsider give a second thought wait another day realize your mistake and call it a play I lost sleep waiting for you to forgive in hopes and dreams, I wished that you would let me live sardonically crazy narcotically bored was this the verdict I'd been waiting for? chemistry was never my strong point I screw it up can never live it down I just want to be with my old friend but you'll never let this happen again I'm the bitch in this army of skulls a friend so happy a friend so full and you were the quiet one who never spoke until I uncapped you and the bottle broke

I'm bored I just want to be ignored a feeling I have never felt before I'm bored I just want to be ignored do you know it? nope no I do not

winking down the ivory clown it's looking back at me the horror it brings the memories, it stings can't shake it off, can't hold it down no gold no silver medals, still in paralysis crisis, a mental expiration my bed's a think tank, safe for me to think in dreary fantasy and imagine every story told from what went wrong to what's to come fair lady pushes off the stage explosions in a ferrous rage the junk blondes ruin all the fun desuiting majors, one by one still I worry, to stop I try but I obsess, so still I cry and wash away my joy forever through the void the black heart inside me waits to burst an imminent explosion, imploding first where true affection hides behind the wooden ropes next to the stares and the absent gropes

did I never make it clear? I don't want to be here in the same room as you but there's nothing I would rather do than be here shivering in the gas chambers of fear would rather be here do you know your limits? how many minutes?

in a symphony of bedroom noise I apologize endlessly I may as well let you know five months have come and gone and I still can't stop thinking about you you must have done something right to the wretched creature in my skull your appearance in my head has given me a gorgeous mind beautiful mind I don't mind if I've been unkind I can't leave my ugly past behind because I'll always hold it tight in my gorgeous mind I'm partially done doting you're not an angel anymore and I'm kinda glad I didn't try to make things like before but the gate of signs has burned to the ground I need to make a better sound meta much? I'm just saying that it's a painful statement I've spent far too long delaying I'm a skeleton to your professor exhibit A in a dusty closet I can't be bothered to say a word even if I know I'll be heard bullshit, we know that's a lie knowing you would rather lie then look at me again unforgiving thoughtful friend of mine you have graced me with your image and in turn a gorgeous mind beautiful mind never mind if I used to be unkind I didn't try to make you cry I regret a lot but not everything sail over the cast iron planet I was alone and loving it but I spent quite a bit of time, waiting for the gods it's not enough for me on the outside, I was fine on the inside, black tar mind you have blessed me with holding back, left behind stalling in a gorgeous mind of Polish descent in tears she went now is not the right time to ask her April 12, I felt funny inside the morning was confident, but a bit jagged the afternoon, I left, my conscience died I think we all did